Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Outside.

I've been neglecting this. Oddly, the one thing that I really feel can help the change. The act that reminds me of my staggering emotion. The single escape I can find. My own comfort. Where have I been? I suppose I should have known. I should have gotten out my binoculars and saw this not too far off. I am destroying myself. My attempts at happiness were silly and mostly in vain. I am my own doctor Frankenstein. I never intended this monster. It's purpose was not to demolish this much. I was blinded by foolishness.
This may sound crazy but, I would like to thank you. You gifted me with pain which tore me to the point of realization. Without a doubt the sting hasn't yet vanished, and it won't for a while. However, I needed it. Keep in mind I still need you.